A new painting from 2013, “Finding my way back to you” is a multi layered story that rings true on many levels. We have all probably felt at some point in our lives that strange feeling of loneliness that can permeate everything.
Sometimes it is just a simple need, a longing for some solitude in the middle of our hectic lives. But sometimes it is something much more complex.
Perhaps a realization that we have strayed from our purported paths and we are now alone, facing our worst fears and a dark, sometimes scary road that may, or may not, allow us to get back to where we feel happiest and most satisfied with life and ourselves.
A lost love may take us there, or a seemingly lost life in which we have made some bad or mistaken decisions and where we feel lost, lonely, and in a place where everything feels just wrong.
Whatever the reason, we stand alone at the portal of this individual purgatory.
Hell is somewhere close…we can feel the heat and see the glare of the brazing flames, but we are not yet there.
It all feels uncomfortable and yet we know deeply in our hearts that there is a path that will take us back, and it will be up to us to find it or lose our way all together.
We are paralyzed as we prepare to enter. We stay there and look around, just thinking about everything while we try to get the strength to move forward into this land of contrasts, where the choices may be a far away, and yet very real, fall into everlasting pain; or instead a complex search for self awareness, redemption and truth.
The stairs to salvation are up there somewhere. The setting is asking us to change, to transfigure, to become something else and yet stay the same. Perhaps, it is just asking us to return to our essence.
The location of the entrance to this connecting tunnel is just there for us to find.
The price of our endeavor is high, but finding the peaceful feeling of being back on the true path, the warmth knowledge of feeling true love once more and the reunion with a heartfelt smile, makes it all worth every step, every risk, and every tear.
As always, let’s not finish before we get some music to accompany this new work. It is a great song from Eric Clapton, and it kind of talks about a personal purgatory and his own way of getting back to the warmth of his love. As I said at the beginning, there are many reasons we go through this, and many ways to express those feelings.
See you next time.